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Chrystal Ann Kaminski
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This journal consists of my daily functions, my musings and general thoughts. Read as you wish...

May 2007
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Chrystal Ann Kaminski [userpic]
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I rememeber once...walking down the hallway at MIAD and stopping to read a quote on somebody's photography work, I never forgot it.

It read...

"Have you ever seen someone so beautiful that your heart stops, you can't breathe...and you can't look away..?"



This is my last entry before I made my journal FRIENDS ONLY. I write in my journal about twice a week and read my friends page daily. If you want to read my journal, you must be friended by me as well. I welcome any friends who want to grace my page with their eyes, so request as you wish.

Current Location: Home
Emotion: touchedSearching for real friends..
Serenading me....: Baxter
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Re: welcome to downtown....

LOL!!!

I don't think I need any binoculars buuuutt....

I could ask the people that park in the parking structure below my windows, they see me ALL the time, one day they might wanna get a better look! then I trick them by getting shades :)

"To me you are more than a woman. You are a creature of beauty, a creation of a higher order. I will die knowing that no one will ever love you as I have loved you all these years. I will now attempt to say your name with my last breath." - from Solipsist by Henry Rollins

That's my favorite "hyper-romantic" quote.

found you through _ass.

That's one of the most beautiful quotes I have ever heard. Thank you for posting it.

:).

No prob. It's kindof crazy to think something so beautiful could come from Rollins' head. =p

Indeed...tis' a beautiful quote indeed...

You can find me at the pub

Nice quote. I love reading things like that. I updated my page so check it out. That was a lot of fun hanging out with you and Sara that night. Let's do it again soon. My friend is spinning at a chill spot on Saturday if you want to try something different.

OT

Also adding you here, if ya don't mind. ^_^

According to this, you're not only a friend of Hobbes and Jennifer, but also Lore, who I don't know personally but is a friend of several friends of mine.

lol, small world, I guess. ^_^

Re: OT

Oh, no problem, I added you too. Gees, this entry is really old. I have a friends only journal now, that's why ya could'nt see any of my recent posts before you added me :).

But yeah, totally..small ass world.

Re: OT

I figured it was something like that.

Good times. ^_^

Friended.

You are friended.

-That dude you met at Lisa's birthday party (Sean)

Re: Friended.

Ha ha...gotcha.

I added ya back.

Yup, I got the "lime in the coconut" idea from the song. Good guess! How did you come by my journal, if I may ask?

I saw a post of yours in a community we are both in and I saw the little lime floating in the coconut and thought it was so cute I had to say something :). I love that song too.

I think you're amazing.

Thank you, but who are you, might I ask.

I have added you. I hope that is ok. I am seriously not a stalker. I do understand the nature of what you where saying in this post. I have been in several serious violent situations and there is a point where you just really want it to happen. I have always felt somewhat guilty over that, being a person who does try to promote peace. I guess the animal is always going to be there though. I like the way you are honest in your perspectives. I hope you have time to post more of that sort of thing.

Would you mind if I added you to my friends list?

Sure :) I'll add you back.

hello and no problem

hello its me mike from the rave, and was no problem taking care of you during the rave , its what i do . peace out homie.

Hi Crystal.....I was looking at your profile and I saw you know Emily and Nikki (gypsyfeminist and dewie) Emily is one of my good friends and I have know Nikki for years---small town...
How's that fruit Gary's giving you?
Analisa

Hey what's up?

Yeah, I love Nikki...and I have only known Emily for a short while, but from what I know of her, she's pretty cool.

The fruit is wonderful, he's a really good friend. So how do you know all of these people?

Sorry, this is random, I know...
I'm trying to decide on an art school. One of the schools I'm looking at is MIAD, and I was wondering, if this wasn't too weird, if you could tell me how you feel about it. I would probably be going for graphic design or photography.

Yes, I would totally suggest MIAD as a school for photography and especially for graphic design.

Most people that go there go into design anyway.

It is very $$ to go there, I will tell you this right now. They are a private college and recieve no money from the state for funding classes or paying teachers.

I highly suggest getting financial aid and ANY grants you can get your hands on. The biggest complaint about the school is the money hands down.

Also, be ready to work your fingers to the bone and give up most of your social life because the first year and a half are the hardest to get through and be stable. Most people who drop out do it at the end of the first year or right after the second.

It's intense, but if you want to go there, you have to kinda be intense as well :)

Good luck!

Thanks, you're the best!

Bumped into you on postsecreat. I'm sorry that my post struck you way, I just had to say it, some where.

Awee...that's ok, I just get really sad when I hear stories of people fading, like people with alzheimers or in your sons case autism.

I study rare mental disorders and autism is one that has baffled me for years. I have a friend that has an autistic sister...

It's just so confusing to me....how can someone be there...and then just, not be. Mentally. I just don't get it, it's like the soul gets lost in the body..never to come out again.

it's like the soul gets lost in the body..never to come out again.

Now that made me cry. You are exactly right. it's like he's traped inside his shell, with no way out, with no way to tell me how to help him.

hi i just made this new journal for people that i dont know personally and im looking for people who seem chill to add so if you're interested just add me and i'll add you back. thanks

this may sound odd, but i found you in _postsecret_ because you replied to one of my comments not anonymously. so i checked you out and i see you're from milwaukee too. was curious if you mind if i add you?

Sure, I'll add ya back :)

From <lj comm="pregnant">

If you're birthing at Columbia St. Mary's, they may still have doulas on staff. I know of a doula who used to be employed there.

I hope that helps! Or try bellywomen.net for a free/low cost doula.

Re: From <lj comm="pregnant">

I'm birthing at Auroura Sinai Medical right down the street from my house. But I have heard that columbia is a good place to go for birthing...a friend of mine had her baby there and the room she was in was so nice and quiet and comfortable, I'll ask my hospital what kind of options they have..

Thanks for the heads up :)

I'll ask the doula that I know in Milwaukee about hospital doulas in Milwaukee. I just think that if you want one, you should have one and most doulas are willing to make that happen!

Hi!

Hello! Followed you hear from the Mom's without group. I lost my first born son at full term on Christmas Eve just a bit after you lost you daughter. I just wanted to say hello and see how you have been managing since.

Re: Hi!

I have been doing pretty good since it happened, I got pregnant right away afterward (like only two months after). It's still hard, and I miss and think about Anniliese every day and sometimes I look at her pictures and take out her clothes just to hold onto them. I also have a cremation necklace with her ashes in it that I wear, so I feel like she's around still.

It must have been even harder for you to lose your son at full term, how are you holding up?

Re: Hi!

Hey!
I am surviving but having a really hard time with the horrible sad that comes with this. Taking it one day at a time, had my first session today with a bereavement counsellor so I am exausted, spent 3 hours in her office just bawling. It was very hard to loose Evan at full term, he was so beautiful and perfect and chubby and 8lbs 21 inches, and it broke my heart as he was just so perfect, they don't know how he died, basically everything has been ruled out so far, they think it will just be an unexplained mystery stillbirtn which offered me no closure at all. They recommend we wait at least 6 months before trying again as my body needs time to heal, I have a difficult and long delivery with him with forcepts, episiotomy and the whole works so I am still very soar.

I also have the memory box and a necklace for his ashes.

How far along did you loose your daughter? I am happy for you that you were able to get pregnant again right away, that is wonderful, I am sure it will be very healing for you. I am told I should have no problem with future pregnancy's as this one was complication free right till the end.

Re: Hi!

I was six months (26 weeks) the night I lost her. She was 13 inches and 1 pound 4 ounces.

It's been sort of mixed emotions with this baby, it's hard to be excited and happy because of what happened before, but at the same I'm elated. I feel it kicking now and such so at least I know it's living, which I'm afraid of every day. I know that when we finally get past the 26 week mark I will feel much better though, so here's to hoping!

Re: Hi!

Absolutly here's to hopping. I have faith, somehow despite all I have been through, that everything will be ok.

Adding you... Hoping to be added back, eventually (I realize you're a little busy right now!). Found you through lostvirtue, hopefully she will vouch that I am not scary. :) I don't write a lot, but I do read and comment (only) when I have something useful to say...

Ohh, sure!...any friend of Sara's is a friend of mine. I shall return ze add indeed :)

Thanks :)

I read back a little in your journal this morning and I must say (1) I am so very sorry, (2) I am so VERY happy for you and (3) I don't know when I have last seen a woman who looked so beautiful in her pregnancy. I can only imagine how beautiful you look in motherhood.