Chrystal Ann Kaminski (surrealkiller) wrote,
Chrystal Ann Kaminski

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If I had no one but you......

This water melon is really yummy.....I looooove water melon. So I am sad......about stuff, mainly Daniel, I can't get it out of my head that he will be gone alot and he does not know what to do to comfort me. All he would have to say is that he will try to make sure I am safe, I question that I will be, I don't know why. I feel like I am slowing him down, well maybe I am not that important, I don't know. *sigh*

Everybody I can think of has said it would not be a good idea for me to move away with him. They say I will be fucked if something happens when we are living far away, and I will not be able to get back here. I hope that does not happen. I am actually more interested in going to live in Vancouver, even though I woud rather stay here in the U.S. just to be closer to all of you :).

I know that the problems I will have with him in the future, whatever they may be, we will find a way through them. If there is something I cannot do, or he cannot do, we will find something in the middle that will make us both at least a little more content. I think that's the way of thinking that makes my life easier, if it does not work, there is ALWAYS a way to fix it. A teacher of mine used to always say "There is always enough time in a day" and I believe that because I have made it happen. As long as I don't worry my as off about something, it usually plays itself out. Talleah told me last night, "If ya can't fix it right now, don't worry about it until you can", I really needed to hear that I guess. I felt so much better after talking to her last night, we talked for ever! by the end I was laughing so hard that I had tears in my eyes. Now when that happens I am REALLY havin' a good time.

I am going to pay my big fat credit card bill today..... good, get that out of the way. And then I am going to put something ight back on it, a big fat....ummmmm...processor and what else do I need? a hard drive, yeah. Puters rock. Yum yum.

This after noon I go to Brady to get my money order, I hope they are open.
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