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Chrystal Ann Kaminski
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This journal consists of my daily functions, my musings and general thoughts. Read as you wish...

May 2007
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Chrystal Ann Kaminski [userpic]
Nothing could be worse....

Than losing an angel.

He's gone forever.....

Last night he came over and told me that he thought that we should not continue as is, that we should be "just friends". Well, my feelings run much deeper than that at the moment. I told him that I was so deeply in love with him. He said that his romantic feelings for me were dwindling more and more, and that he did'nt know why, it could be the stress, the timing. Whatever it was, our relationship was not enough for him to want to continue. I told him I can't just be friends because I don't think I know HOW to do that with him, we have never been friends, we started dating right when we met, within a few weeks. All I know of him is from us being romantically involved. I told him that if I kept hanging out with him, that I would miss him, eventhough he is right next to me. I would not be able to touch him, to hold him, I could not kiss him anymore.....to be around him would be pure torture.

"I don't know what else to do" He said

What do I do ....... I have no fucking idea. Goddamn it, I wish I would just find a way to leave this place, this sadness.....and my recurring ability to lose the very person in my life whom I am DEEPLY devoted too and in love with.

My angel....my light, my very thing which is so stable and honest and true....my muse....

Jose......I miss you.

Come back :****(

Emotion: sadsad
Serenading me....: Coldplay - Trouble

Oh no!! What the heck!? This is sudden! I thought you guys were doing so well???



We were, on Thursday, we were together and happy and playing and laughing......that's all I hear now, the echoing of the laughter.

I need to hear his voice......I don't want to live without him.

Out of the blue, he said he thought he would never be inlove with me, that did'nt know for sure, but that right now, that's what he thinks.

I just don't get it.


i am soooooooooooo sorry!


I was so incredibly happy.....and I thought he was too

He seemed so content.

I don't want to live without him.

Oh darling...

I don't know what else to say but that I'm so sorry this has happened to you.

Thank you for listening.

I don't know what I am going to do.

You're going to just keep breathing ok? That's all anyone asks of you.

I'm sorry to hear that, girlie!

Sucky...WTF??? Oh girly...I am sooooooooooooo sorry!!!!!!!!
Big ol' HUGZ to you!!!!

Poopy boys..damn them all :(

Im So Sorry!

I just stumbled across your journal and read this entry I totally understand your situation im going through it right now well except mine happened 4 months ago and it still feels like yesterday. I know I probably shouldn't have said that to you being that you are in this pain right now. Im really sorry that you are going through this!

Re: Im So Sorry!

Thank you so much for listening......

I'm sorry that the same thing happened to you.

I am happy to see that there are still people in the world that want to give sympathy out to others.